Bow Down

Genesis 22:5

Abraham said to his young men, "Stay here with the donkey, and I and the lad will go over there; and we will worship and return to you."

Worship seems like one of life’s’ easy things to do. I live in a church age when people love to go to worship, but I often wonder if there is much like worship coming from my life. Even in the posture of our worship is a lot of standing up and seldom a bowing down. Why did the ancient people bow down anyway?
The more I separate love and obedience, the easier it is for me to worship. But if worship is a combination of loving God and fully obeying Him, worship is hard for me. It is hard for me because of me. I enjoy loving and obeying myself, not another, even when that other is God. I mean I do try and trick myself by calling my will and God’s will the same. I do tend the think that God and I see things the same way. I even tell people that I know and hear the voice of God, so surly I must be doing the right things – right?
Maybe worship can be identified by what
• What we leave behind
• What we take with us
• What we take up the hill
• How we return to the place we left

I am in the prayer room right now. I think I am writing about worship so that I don't fell guilty about not worshiping! I think I want to be Godly but avoid the blaze of His gaze by doing stuff (writing, reading, prayer, sermonizing, listening to the music). As I write the above statement I fell compelled to change my tactic. Maybe I should compare myself to others, others who are not in the prayer room right now. Maybe those who I know (I consider) not as Godly as I am. Is there anyway to escape the trap that this is all about me?

NO.
It is the door of selfishness, once we are aware of, that we go through to encounter the one who transform our self into His self. I must be me before I can be transformed into His image. Pretending to be another me will not help the me that I am. I think I am going to love on Him now for His patience toward me. I might even do most of the things He has asked me to do (both in my thoughts and deeds).