I wonder what my life would be like if God dealt with me justly? I know the truth is that I am “no good”, “unworthy”, and “full of sin”. Yet that is not the truth God Himself has asked me to live under. But what if God desires to be more just in my life than I want?
I have a lot of people give me money, food, clothing. Sure I do acts of love and kindness for others, I care for my neighbors. I preach, teach and serve so that I am worthy of the calling that I have received. But what is my worth in the Kingdom of God? Am I worth the Lord keeping me alive?
The last few days I have been dreaming about some pretty big things, things that in the natural cost millions of dollars. I was even dreaming and praying about taking one year of my life, and through a planned effort record on video my quest for the Lord. It would be a year of fasting, seeking, fervent living the life for Christ in the midst of this everyday world and then recording that for others to see. The “why” is because I believe in my heart there is lurking just outside our vision a reality of God that is greater than “Survivor Man” and numerous other reality shows. Don’t we need a “real” how to survive this life with God documentary to balance all the “try harder” messages and the “one day God will bless you so much you will never need to work at it again” dreams. Should I ask people to keep me alive while I try such a thing? Should I ask them to carry my burden and support my family? I bet my older kids are glad they are out of the house!
If I was like Jesus I would have not trouble living off the Lord. But I am not much like God. But what if I became like Him?
I have a lot of people give me money, food, clothing. Sure I do acts of love and kindness for others, I care for my neighbors. I preach, teach and serve so that I am worthy of the calling that I have received. But what is my worth in the Kingdom of God? Am I worth the Lord keeping me alive?
The last few days I have been dreaming about some pretty big things, things that in the natural cost millions of dollars. I was even dreaming and praying about taking one year of my life, and through a planned effort record on video my quest for the Lord. It would be a year of fasting, seeking, fervent living the life for Christ in the midst of this everyday world and then recording that for others to see. The “why” is because I believe in my heart there is lurking just outside our vision a reality of God that is greater than “Survivor Man” and numerous other reality shows. Don’t we need a “real” how to survive this life with God documentary to balance all the “try harder” messages and the “one day God will bless you so much you will never need to work at it again” dreams. Should I ask people to keep me alive while I try such a thing? Should I ask them to carry my burden and support my family? I bet my older kids are glad they are out of the house!
If I was like Jesus I would have not trouble living off the Lord. But I am not much like God. But what if I became like Him?
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